I am so so sorry, me too is crying as I read this. It is like reading about what you are having to go though brings back how it felt when I have been in the same situation. I know when I am writing this you may be on your way home and it feels like it will never get any better. It takes time, it is hard and you will cry a ton but it will get easier to live with. We are here for you and will listen to whatever you need to say or however much you need to talk about it.
I have a few kids up there too, and like nickers babies, they will wait on him, and tell him, his mom wanted them to come meet him and be his very best friend. They will look after him and he will run around playing without having to wobble anymore.
Give all your two legged children a big hug and big huggs and slobbers to you too.
We are thinking of you.
Safe crossing Odin
Marit