I understand your lose and all I can say is was her time with you while she was with you worth the pain you feel now.
My answer is always yes,Even if it is in looking into a new puppy eyes,or when a rescue makes that magical connection,I know they will break my heart and I tell myself in a soft voice in my head and heart,they will make mw strong enough to bear it.
I hope this poem helps
Tricia/Magic
I stood by your bed last night,
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
You found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you softly
As you brushed away a tear,
"It's me,I haven't left you,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here"
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour the tea,
You were thining of the many times,
Your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today,
Your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today,
You tend it with such care.
I want to re-assure you,
That I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house,
As you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you,
I smiled and said "It's me."
You looked so very tired,
And sank into a chair,
I tried so hard to let you know,
That I was standing there.
It's possible for me,
To be so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty,
"I never went away."
You sat there very quietly,
Then smiled,I think you knew...
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.
The day is over...
I smile and watch you yawning,
And say,"good-night,God Bless,
I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you,
To cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you,
And we'll stand,side by side.
I have so many things to show you,
There is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...