WooHoo, day 1 down!!! Sounds like you have some awesome friends there, and I agree with the hubby and someone else said it too. Take this time to find out about you. Yeah, it sounds corny but I think everyone, male or female, should do it. I've decided that I will meet Mr. Right when I'm right!! I don't need the crap of a Mr. Right Now!! I know far too many people who go from guy to guy and I can't help thinking that they are never going to find what they need in any of those relationships. Never feel bad about standing up for yourself, good for you!!! If you feel the urge to call him, pick up the phone and call someone else, anyone else!!
I was reading your post and I thought "oh, deja-vu"!! I broke up with someone, only to take him back, and do it all over again. He wasn't a bad guy, just not my good guy!! The last time, he's bawling, yes bawling, on the bed and I almost started to say, "ok...." and a voice in my head said "you stupid bi@#h, get out now! he is who he is" and that was it. As kids we always heard, don't settle; why didn't we ever listen?!?!?!? Chin up!