Thankyou so much everyone . It was super hard to leave him ( I didn't stay for the end) , our good friends stayed with him , we used to board him at their house so he knows them really well and they love him . I just couldn't take it and it was extra hard with the kids there , they get scared seeing mommy cry . I don't know if any of you remember when I posted last spring about how I was having such a hard time finding someone who would put him to sleep ( without using a stupid shotgun ! ) and finding a place to bury him , but our good friends from Church offered to do both ( his dad is one of the best vets around ) and didn't even charge me a dime , all they asked for was an apple pie . How sweet is that ? So , while I'm just heatbroken that dear sweet Speedo is gone , I also feel like this huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders , he doesn't have to be in any pain anymore , and we don't have to worry anymore , so once more , I love you soooo very much Speedo , see you soon !!!!