Here’s my story, hope it doesn’t gross anyone out too much!
Some of you saw my posts following Blake’s delivery regarding me being a bit beat-up after delivering. I broke my tailbone and was just taking longer to recover than most, not a huge deal or anything. Well, all of a sudden going to the bathroom became a huge event for me, and one I wanted to avoid. I passed out on the toilet, twice. The pain associated with it was unbearable…and it got to the point that I was afraid to go at home alone, for fear I’d pass out again (and wouldn’t want Blake to be alone should I stay passed out for minutes/hours/whatever)…
I went to my doctor numerous times, he thought it was just severe hemmoroids. Well, I finally went to see a specialist and got a proper diagnosis. In English (medical terms and I don’t mix)…I pushed so hard during delivery that I pretty much blew apart my whole bowel/anus/you get the picture! It was as if someone had put a live grenade up there…Needless to say I was put on the immediate surgery list and went in for reconstructive surgery last Friday…
The recovery time is 1 month or so. I am in ridiculous amounts of pain daily, but I will get through this. I’m not writing this post to receive pity either, I’m doing it so you all know where I’ve been…cause I miss you all! It just comes down to how I feel on certain days. Today I was able to sit on the computer chair for a bit…tomorrow I may not be able to.
I am just hopeful that one day I will be feeling better, for now going to the washroom is h*ll. I shake/sweat/lose my breath but keep thinking “it will get better, it will get better”. I am so sick of being trapped in the house, but until I’m better, I have to be. I couldn’t imagine being out somewhere and having to “go”. I just couldn’t do it anywhere but home (not to mention I’d probably scare away people wanting to use a public bathroom)!!! I think Blake is bored of being home all the time too… I used to take him out here & there and he loved it. Hopefully, soon, we’ll get there again. For now we go on a walk each evening with Eric & Kate. Not far or long, but regardless – it’s out of the house and something I look forward to daily!
So that’s my story. I hope everyone is doing great! Blake is doing wonderful, he’s growing like crazy, I’ll post pictures when I can. He is cooing and smiling all the time, it’s the best! Kate is doing good too, she is being extra lazy these days (I suppose she doesn’t have any other choice though) and loves her baby bro!
The things we go through for our kids, hey?! Having said that though, I’d do it all over again if I had to, cause there’s nothing better in our lives than Blake. He is sooooooooooooo worth it!
Talk soon,
Kelly
