I it's hard to not feel scared. Everyone does. I've had SIX c-sections and even after my second,third ect I would want to run the other way once I walked into that hospital. and I have a high pain tolerance. It's not so much the sugery, or even the recovery, it's those moments leading up to the inevidable and not knowing what the outcome will be, for certain.
It's expecially scary the very first time. You read all these wonderful things about 'birth plans' and feel you missed out on that, or have no controle over the birthing of your child what so ever. It'll be aright. Your actually do have the controle!
Ask for an epideral so you may stay awake durring the birth. You can talk to the docters and nurses and hear your baby's first cry. You can even watch them test and measure your child and the daddy can hold your baby! Once in recovery, chances are they let you hold and try to nurse the baby too. Note-- I highly recomend nursing at least for a while. It helps to shrink your uterous and slow any bleeding. If the nurses don't think that uterous is shrinking well (as the case of bottle fed babies) they will try to stimulate by either patosin (sp?) or massaging. Uncomfortable!
After the surgery, and you are put in your room, they will have you roll from one side, rest for a couple hours, then have you move to the other. It does hurt, but the more you do this, the easier the recovery. You will start feeling better the next day, trust me. Once you can sit on the edge of the bed and walk to the bathroom on your own, you'll notice that caring for your baby takes on any priority at all. The pain lessons quite a bit and just holding that darling little miracle is all you'll want to do. When the nurses come to bring the baby back to the nursery, you'll find yourself having a hard time sleeping, because you want that baby back in your arms! Day three, you ache allot less and want to go home...day four, you're ready and find a whole new sets of parental worries! hehe
So, it's okay to feel scared. It's okay to feel overwhelmed with worry. Just take a deep breath and one day at a time. One experience at a time.