I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. You've been given a lot of good advice. I recognized you weren't around here hardly at all anymore. I can't comment on the job aspect since my only bosses now are these little ones around here, though quite demanding there's no place I'd rather be. I sure don't miss a 'regular job' and I feel for you with what you're having to deal with.
I can definitely relate on the weight issue. I've had an obsession about that for many years, and it doesn't seem to be getting any easier for me as I get older, it's getting worse. But it seems to run in my family with my mom and sister having the same obsession. I never owned a scale after I moved away from home until a couple months ago, so I could weigh the pups- MISTAKE. Now I can't stay off of it and I've finally gained a pound more than what I was hanging at and it's been extrememly depressing. The sick part is, I'm pregnant! I know I'm gonna gain 30 more but my head hasn't accepted that yet. Anyway, I'm just trying to say I can relate and empathize because even in pg when it's normal, it's a struggle for me to like myself. The VERY last thing I want to hear is how good I look, it just has never helped and hubby can't seem to keep his mouth shut.
It only matters what I see, ya know.
But you've just gotten over a sickness right? And you lost weight I remembered you said, so I would *try* and really cut yourself a break. Do you know why you've gained? Since you've been depressed and normal things aren't making you happy anymore, could that be the cause? Just eating out of comfort? If you can identify the reason and know you can fix it, that helps me anyway.
I would also suggest you find someone to talk to because like mentioned before, it can get out of hand and it's good you are seeing it now while you can get some help. I'm glad the dogs are there to help you, they're good at that.
Keep trying to check in and let us know how you are ok?