As my worst fears were confirmed this afternoon, I still want to say thank you to everyone here. I'm so grateful Tracy's cousins found this site, too and I hope to meet you all in Omaha as soon as the arrangements are made. I still can't believe this has happened. It's like I'm watching it happen to someone else and there is still a tiny part of my brain that doesn't comprehend that this is permanent.
I've been going back and forth all day from breaking down and sobbing to being completely numb. I hope this is normal.
The worst thing about all this, to me, is that Tracy - beautiful, vivacious, spontaneous Tracy with the infectious laugh - was thrown in the river like a piece of trash. This I cannot forgive. Whomever is responsible for this - whatever warped reason they have - could at least have had the decency to bury her or leave her somewhere that she would be found, not just toss her into the river to wash up like common refuse.
Anyway, sorry. I had to get that out.
Somehow, some way, I will find an answer to why this happened. Thankfully, I know with your help and the help of my wonderful friends and family here, I will find the strength to cope with this in the coming days.
April and EllieandBlu - I will look you up when I get to Omaha.
Love you all,
Jeanne
