My baby girl had a horrible time the last two days. I wish I had taken her to Pet Emergency on Saturday when she was first telling me she was ready. But I waited, because I was insecure about taking her for a car ride and having her on an exam table when she went to sleep. She couldn't sleep at all on Sunday night and this morning she had some sort of spell and wasn't the same after that. She could still hear me and responded, but some neurological failure happened and she could no longer hold her eyes steady. I knew she was dying.
Greta's vet came to her home tonight around 7 pm and she was put to sleep.
No matter how I feel later, I'm telling you right now that I feel so terrible there is nothing I can say or do. I don't know how I will feel tomorrow. I think I will be bursting into tears all the time, uncontrollably and inappropriate times...in public and when I am supposed to be serious.
My heart is broken. It's going to take some time. I don't know what else to say. This was just awful.