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« on: March 11, 2007, 02:55:25 pm »
i've been a little upset lately, because my hubby has decided that i don't give him enough attention, and is now constantly starting fights about that. i get aggravated at him because i spend all day trying to keep the house clean, entertaining the kids, taking care of the dogs, etc. it's a full time job here and he doesn't think it is. the second i wake up, it's all about the kids, and potty the dogs. the kids take a nap and it's all about feeding, watering, etc of the dogs. i get done with the dogs and it's back to the kids. when the kids finally get to bed, brandon walks in the door and it's all about him then. i don't even have time for MSN messenger anymore, only pop on to post then chase the kids. finally somewhere around 11 or 12, i just crash and sometimes can't even make it to the bed b/c i'm so tired. i stay so busy here at the house trying to keep everyone happy that i've gotten very unhappy myself. in 8 months, i've made one "associate" (my neighbor) and my only friends are the people who work at the store. sad. pathetic. i hate it. i don't even know how to make friends anymore. i'm antisocial, i have a social phobia about new people, the only way i've found to get around that and to be comfortable is to take a dog with me. lately, it's gotten where i only get to go somwhere with the dogs once a month, other than that i only go grocery shopping and to get dog food. i've found that my hubby is very immature in what he expects of me. he just doesn't understand, regardless of how i try to explain, or how many times. it's like i get done explaining and he's standing in the middle of a room screaming he wants attention. i try really hard to keep up but i've been so stressed that i get sick and can't stop puking, i feel sick to my stomach constantly, and have a lot of heartburn. i go through two bottles of malox a week now trying to get my stomach calmed down, i honestly think i might have an ulcer. if it's not my stomach it's a headache that will keep me in bed, or i'm plain exhausted and falling asleep within 5 minutes of sitting down. my hubby just doesn't understand i'm giving him all the attention i can, and he just won't accept that i HAVE to have a break soon or i'll end up losing my mind from all the stress. does anyone have advice on how to get him to understand??